Hangin' out in the back seat

I am in this role as a Dietetic Intern, and not that this is a new realization, but I have been reminded over and over that I am in a field saturated with Type A, perfectionist, OCD women*. It's a bit overwhelming at times - everyone seems to have it totally together, a career plan firmly in tact and a clear vision as to where they are headed. Exhausting.

My plan all along has been to complete this internship, sit for my boards, become an RD, and then transition to get my masters in Nursing. I would be crazy amounts of marketable, be extremely effective in medical missions and be able to pass along my passion for nutrition through the validity of being a Nurse Practitioner. Seems like a error proof plan - right?

I am 8 weeks into this program (unbelievable!) and I am starting to question, well, EVERYTHING! And depending upon the day - no scratch that. Depending on the hour the direction I feel I should go changes. I love clinical. I hate clinical. I'm in the right field. I couldn't have picked a less appropriate field for me... (you see the stressed Type A personality coming out?? Yeah!)

When I'm able to sit down and think, it is clear to me that this is the very reason this internship exists and why we are forced to tread through it. It's challenging and stressful but it makes you value where you are.

I was talking to my dad not to long ago, and after I was through with my rant about going from having a foul proof plan to having no idea where on earth I was headed, he plainly reminded me that my lot has already been made secure. God has this map already planned out - all I have to do is watch for his hand and his guidance and He will lead me straight there. What a stress reliever! I am not asked to plan the route or even know the destination - just be willing to jump in the car!

Excerpts of Psalm 16
Keep me safe, O God,
for in you I take refuge.
I said to the LORD, "You are my Lord;
apart from you I have no good thing."
...
LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup;
you have made my lot secure.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
surely I have a delightful inheritance.
I will praise the LORD, who counsels me;
even at night my heart instructs me.
I have set the LORD always before me.
Because he is at my right hand,
I will not be shaken.
...
You have made known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.


Here is to enjoying the ride! :)


*Way over generalization. Not all RD's qualify. Please, no offense taken!